its getting cold

fall officially arrived on the 22nd of september 2008 at 11:04 EST.

why do i have this certifiably junk information in my head? good question. you are not going to be happy with the answer. deep breath.

well, for what it is worth, i tried to ignore it, i insisted on wearing open toed shoes, and walking around in my skirts. but apparently mother nature does not care for my approval. winter is here, whether i like it or not.

and even i cannot exist in denial any more. there has been a layer of frost on the grass these past few mornings, the tree in my front yard has lost all its leaves, and my car windows are iced.

right! i am depressed.

i need something to cheer me up.

good thing i know just what to do. plan a nice diwali dinner. :D see that will cheer you up.

that is exactly why human beings conjured up festivals. when you have met your basic needs, when you have taken care of life's necessities and things start getting to you, you need something to keep you going from season to season. what else are you going to wait for, look up to? life can get monotonous and boring in no time, the celebrations - Halloween, thanksgiving, diwali, Christmas - well, they keep us occupied, distracted, too busy to look at the real state of affairs. because that, quite frankly is depressing.

sorry if i it appears that i think there is a conspiracy behind all of this. i do not. there is a difference in being duped and in creating a self deceptive ruse for your own amusement. i fall in the later category. i know exactly what i am doing. these little little small things, these decorations, these preparations, this forced excitement, i know exactly the purpose they serve. they are not an end. they are the means to an end, and very dependable tools at that. i know what i am doing.

gosh, do i sound like an arrogant little blank. tch. deep sigh. it's just that i have a huge, and i mean huge, you can barely contemplate how huge, a circle of things i do NOT know, and just this very small, tiny, imperceptible circle of things i DO know. now if i start pretending, i do not know what i actually do, where will that leave me? i have so little. so this, i know, and i am sticking by it.

so i know, that the people out there who have got real work to do, do not worry about the change of seasons. you see they got real problems, real issues to deal with, they ain't gonna go round fillin their eads up with stuff they can't do nothing bout. shaking my head. you ask them, chances are a) they could not care less about fall, or halloween, or diwali, or b) they will tell you they actually like the winter. right. no one likes to shovel snow, but you can delude yourself in to accepting it only if you got bigger fish to fry. that's it. other wise, that is your entire life. that's all you gonna bitch and moan about. the snow in your drive way!! excuse my french.

so. it is with this nugget of self knowledge, that i am now, going to go and sulk about the oncoming winter. and go and busy myself up in diwali and halloween and christmas. actually i am going to skip halloween, too close to diwali, don't want to be ODing on this stuff :) what did i tell you, i know what i am doing.

:)

oh and happy diwali to you too.