Saturday, September 13, 2008

if you could go back in time

You know that age old question, if you could go back in time, would you change anything?

Most people I have asked this question to say no. nothing. nothing significant at the least. hmm...

Why?

Why not change something?

Are we scared of sounding like we are not happy with our present lives?

Or may be we just do not actually want to share those small personal details of our lives over small talk. So, we say no, everything is just as i ever wanted it to be, don't push further, let it go. Understandable.

The way i look at it, there could be only three reasons you would not want to change anything.

a) you were perfect the first time round - some people can be, they know exactly what they want, they know how they are going to get that and they go ahead and get it. I am sure it is possible, only i do not think it actually happens to a lot of us.

b) you have not learned any thing new about yourself, others or the way the world works in the time that has passed, you would like to keep doing the same thing over and over. Again, possible, but again i do not think is generally true for most of us.

c) you are scared of changing something in the past because you worry how that would change the present. If you dodge one bullet, would you have to take twenty new ones at the next turn? If you try to take out the bad, would you have to give up the good too?

I don't know about you, but those are the questions that plague me. That is the reason i always say no to that question too. A known evil is better than an unknown one, i am very happy with my present demons, thank you very much.

But, if, for a moment i could put aside that fear, would i want to change things in my past? Yes. Most certainly yes. why the hell not? I definitely made a lot of mistakes back then and i have actually learned a lot since then, so why not use my new found wisdom and do some damage control? hmm?

OK fine, i know, i will only end up making new mistakes, but isn't that the point of the entire exercise - admitting past blunders and being willing to make new ones? Rising above the fear of failure - all over again?

Now the only thing i need to know before i make my list of all events to delete or modify is - will i be the only one who remembers this present time line or will you all remember it too?

Please say you won't, because then that is no fun :( you would keep the annoying chatter of: but this is not how we did it the last time, what are you trying to chaaaaaaaange?

ughhh.
Spoilsport.
No, I think only i should be the one to remember, then I could keep changing things and you would never ever know. oooooh ahhhhaahahahahahahaha <--- evil ravan ki hasi :D

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

This is a very interesting topic. I think even you shouldn't remember what you did.

So obviously you are going to say why? Well, if you remember and others don't, you have an unfair advantage so, "IF" it was possible then either everyone would remember everything or, no one (including you) wouldn't remember anything.

If you don't remember anything as well, question to you is, do you think will you make the same mistake or will you change that particular event. How would life be (Mr. Confused)

transient said...

:) Well Mr. Confused, first off, that is the point, I should have the unfair advantage, shouldn't I? This is my imagination.

khair, to answer your question, yes. I will make the same mistakes again in that case, because i did not knowingly make them as mistakes. I thought I was doing the right thing with the information i had at that time, if i am again left in the same situation, the same data, i am more than likely to come up to the same conclusions. right?

The only reason i might make changes that i do want to is because i know something now that i did not know then, i know how the journey ends on this bend, i would now like to know what i would have seen if i had taken the other road. the great what if...

hui muddat ke mar gaya galibh
par yaad aata hai
vo har baat par kehna
ki yun hota to kya hota